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Name: Yan aka Selenge bacin
Age: 67 dah tua lar
From: Mars, Jupiter, Pluto.
Job: Travel Agent/Student/Sister/Tutor/Sales Assistant/Nose Digger/Techinician
Mini-Bio
Hi, Yan here..I come in peace. I love Food. It's a must. I get urges on my tastebuds once in awhile for apple pie, mee wanton, mee kueh teow goreng, mee goreng mama, murtabak, indian rojak, oreo and strawberry yougurt cheesecakes anithg that is sweet like truffles, icecream, chocolates of white and dark. The list goes on baby....*smiles*
Music? I breathe and live for it. My cd's and mp3's plays music from genre of Rock.Metal.Emocore.Punk.Punkrock. You name it I've listened to it. Bands? Loads. I am a favourite of local scence. But my upmost favourite: The agony scene, Anti-Flag, Saosin.Silverstein.Emery.Funeral For a Friend.Kalmah.Trivium. Amon Amarth.Staind....castroy... etc...
Gigs? I splurge my pocket money and my pay buying their tix. No matter how expensive they are. My ears itches to listen to their noises. Rock never dies..\nn/
Family? I love my sister izzati to the core. She is my toy doll. My darling to make me happy at the end of the day. I love ya. Irfan? My crime patner in talking cock, my brother whom I can always rely and share my problems with.. OK AR. Give you face... lu rock ar brader. ahhahaha
Friends? Someone I Can bully, have fun with and talk pure lame ass shit. The taggies and pictures says it all. These people are my 2nd home. I can never live w/o you peeps.
Contactable? Feel free to add me at msn if you do have one..if you don't **** off. The add is izyan45@hotmail.com .
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Discussion of marriage - Check
Money wise- In the process
I have yet to think about our graduation and the work. The last two years would be damn fast, gee so exciting!
Any how's I went for The Body Shop makeover marathon as one of the contestants. The best part is I get to donate to their funds for women whom are abused. Personally I have witnessed one. It holds a special meaning to me, i wish to contribute more. My preliminaries are coming in January. I have yet to practice my BM and statistics and sociology and to write this entry itself takes time. Sorry sayang I haven't been updating.
The experience was great. I want my pictures sayang. I learned a lot of makeup tips. interesting. I tell you when the day is near I am sooooooo ready.
Anyways, nothing much to update. Till then c'ya. I'm more than happier to let it what it is. SAYANG LOVE YOU!
love is dead at [10:21 PM]
Friday, August 31, 2007
Well2x. It seems that my sayang knows me better than i ever knew myself. I love it when you can tell.
Sometimes I feel like i'm dating my twin sister. LOL.
I have offically change team. Now2x, every great responsibility comes with great risk. Hahaha. Sayang I'm afraid I won't be a good leader, sister, cousin, lover, mother, wife. Entah ar sayang, I am afraid. If only the world understands. I dun wan a position at work, I want my work to be WORK. Nvr md. I know i can't have perfection. I'm super hardworking and bossy...that kills ppl. When say sth I mean IT.
Sometimes being a leader u get into crossroads. When u want to scold them, they are your mates. Never ever compromise. But it's hard! they are my men too. :(
Put aside work stuff, i'm having my break now for two weeks before I start sociology classes as well as statistics. YES. SATISTICS. The horror.
Well, My love life has been mundane. Same thing everytime but with a few gliches here and there. We managed to get thru this money crisis thing. I'm happy enough. Biar we susah now, then later. I will settle nothing less than a 4 room flat. or rented for that matter. Duit marriage nak save lagi, school money nak save lagi. So many randoms thoughts been going tru in my head till it comes to the extend that I do not know which one should I start thinking about first.
Home, well sucks. Sometimes I feel that asking another person's help is useless. What MATERRS most is that we help each other between ourselves in a family. No point I state all the bad incidents. Its never ending. Tiring.
Till then, I love you sayang. Always.
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love is dead at [6:42 PM]
Friday, July 27, 2007
Ola!!! muhahahha.
I'm happy lar sorry. Been busy lately. My god how long didn't I blog.. LOL!
Ok confession, i'm lazy plus there's many busybody's around me so I rather they approach me and ask how am I more sincere. * Winks* I had many2x choices but I choose to lead my life tis way. Currently i'm studying for management theory, in short critizing or advising certain business or predict those who can make it or not. Like i mention before to husain in every succesful women's life there is a man behind her who loves her dearly andd......that's yOU SAYANG! muacks. We've got a bright future of us ahead. Can't wait to get lost from here...few more years...pray for me, by then i will start a whole new life again with a new family. The thought of it just spurs me up.
Work has been well tiresome juggling between work and schoool, not that easy my friend. I often go back at 1 or 12 everyday. Meeting husain later for revision and drink our fav hot drink at tcc. So far in counting met countless number of ppl which i dun bother to look up coz it's my past anyways. Let us be happy. I know we're better off than you so I'm contented with what I have and the best part is I enjoy what i'm doing. So yeap2x.
Aightz, gtg and read papers. MOrning ritual. oH YEAH BEFORE I GO. Video time!
Siapa makan chilli feel hot hahahhaha!
love is dead at [9:03 PM]
Friday, April 06, 2007
Muhaha. *evil laughs*. Hi2x once again. I am feeling absolutely chirpy for no rhyme or reason. I noe my rantings won't be read that much except for syg.
You see this is life. What goes around comes around...goes around comes back around. Makes sense? The world revolves in a circle formation.
The best thing about being in this state is...you get to see how others crumble and fall under their own mistake for being stubborn muhahhahahahha! I'm so evil i noe. muahhahahhaha!
Right on a ligther note, I've gained a confirmed entry to SIM(RMIT)BM. Just left with signing of legal papers and payment of fees....5k for one fucking sem. Imagine that. But daddy and I have been putting alot of fucking effort in this thing. So better make it worth it izyan.
Guess what?I have offically quit smoking and drinking for GOOOD. Yeap2x. I told ya. All i need to hear from that someone is a stop and I will. So far it's been smooth .sailing with syg. Sorry for writing MD HUSAIN BTE RASHID . It's suppose to be Bin. LOL. As per normal. Selenge. Some things never change.
Today don't feel like swimming with syg so that's why I didn't instead here i am infront of my PC catching up on my blog coz i feel that i should give it some updates coz lately there's been a lot of things going on and i dun really feel like giving an update coz there wld be many makcik kepos ard bothering abt my life so yeah. Inshort no updates abt me and syg. If you wanna noe. ASK ME. MSN ME. MSG ME. CALL ME. Communication in the 20th century isn't that hard. Plz...aightz?
Lately i've been bumping into a lot of ppl. Uds, Lin, Hamizah.....azran...etc...and all of em give me that look. Yes a new one. Why? Hiazzz...i noe 4 yrs. But hey i'm not going to regret . I am happy now and it feels right to do what I sld do coz it's the right time right moment. Wantings and needing a two different thing. Learn that.
Aightz. With that i wld like to end today's entry with a verse from the song - " Yummy2x I got butterflies in my tummy & I feel like loving u " ...bye syg.
More kentut's coming up. *smiles*
love is dead at [8:33 PM]
Friday, March 16, 2007
Like finally again, I can nod my head and say yes.
I'm so tired of describing lar. Let the world discover us not the other way round ya syg? It's funny how fate works. Three months ago, i told myself
He teach me the meaning of islam. Halal dan haram. It's different coz u noe y? This time round I waited. We, waited together for the perfect moment.
I nearly lose this chance abg...but I didn't coz I want to give myslef a chance to trust and love all over again...coz i noe u're different and never did i regret making my choice. Never. Like after so long man. FINALLY. muacks . Insyallah. The future's not ours to see...que sera sera...what will be will be. Our past teaches us things and let that be a lesson for us both. I love u whole heartedly.
Never ever cabar the works and plans of god coz the right one might juz knock on ur door unnoticingly. I'm happy and contented that finally a man stop me from doing things which i'm not suppose to. I don't care if i'm hurting from the withdrawal symptoms of smoking or drinking. It's worth it. Now i don't hold islam by name only but i'm a whole person entirely. Amin. I love the fact that i foound the peace within. I love you md husain bte rashid. Never till today did i ever regret making this decision. never.
love is dead at [8:30 PM]
Friday, February 23, 2007
He frames every possible picture that his customer sents him. The nude pictures, the pictures of beautiful models and sometimes if his luck was good enough pictures of important people. Mr Framemaker always wondered...how special these people in those photos look when the picture was captured. Some stary eyed, some squinty and some well sober.
Mr Framemaker is weird. He loves his job. He does it well. He puts in 100% in whatever he does. He works till he gets tired. A little bit of history. Mr Framemaker is smart. He loves studying. He studied the different kinds of wood to which he dreams to make frames to perfection. On the contrary, love hurts him deep.His wife cheated him ran away with another men leaving him alone, clueless. In his worled, women have been leaving him in and out of his life. Some lied to him, some make excuses, some are totally unspeakable. Yet he still tried believing that love can change his life. Tried as he might, he stoped looking and searching for true love. He told himself, it's bullshit. After committing and sacrificing, they will leave. He is so certain about it and true enough in his world it always happens that way.
He pushes everyone away from him and wishes to be alone. He never did have a true bestfriend. If there were, all of them come and go. Some unwilling to share secrets with him, others favouritism. He knew it better. He had enough. Therefore, he made and oath to himself. Never let anyone get to close to you. Never let feelings come in between yourself and the other party. He have been hurt many times before and he wishes not for history to repeat itself.
Surprisingly, he is happy being alone. He knows what is good for him. Along the way he picked up new habits. He met many other people to be called only friends. No special someone. Remember true friends will always stick in no matter what happens. They will give and take. They won't ask questions like : Who called first? They will always share whatever happens to them to EVERYONE and include everyone in the conversation. He reminisce all those times and memories he had before. Its worth nothing. Mr Framemaker throws everything away and hearing himslef saying,: I wish you all well. Come what may. He knows its wrong to push every innocent life away from him but he is willing to risk it. No true friends. No loved one to be called his. No family that he can called his. He alter his course of life. His habits, his loved ones, his friends simply because....
Mr Framemaker is afraid of the future repeating.
Remember don't let anyone get to close to you.
Never let feelings come in between yourself and the other party.
Hurt is only the beginning. Learning from them is another chapter.
Breathe slow. Push away and wish them luck.
When i' m in trouble no one will rescue me. I only have myself to depend on.
My perogative. I say what I want and I will do what I wishes. No one will stop me.
With that Mr Framemaker smiled and continued to sand down the timber for his next artwork.
-----------The end---------------
love is dead at [4:27 PM]
Saturday, January 27, 2007
It feels so good to reunite within yourself and within your mind.
I feel glad that he is with me throught the whole process of that ****** taunting my peaceful life. * Smiles* Painstakingly after the sms war i gotta delete all of the unwanteds. Leceh. Waste money waste time. Siapa suruh kau layan org degil ar yan. Goood for you yan.
Let them learn. I am happy with you as it is. No one will know. Only us. I am tired of running from the thruth . Remember?Sometimes when you're too blind to see you feel at that point of time you are soo certain that he is the one in your life and there won't be anybody else. Well my dears, this world is cruel. Just when you think you're right in a split second god above can change your course of history. Therefore I always tell myself, What you decide today will shape your future. So I am smart enough to think what it would be in the future eg. if i were to get married to him will he chg...yadyadayada...and so finally one day I decide the answers No. Coz no matter how much you try. No matter how much songs and poetry I write to express my feelings of the current situation...the fact still remains....he won't change. And so I move on to a better person. Someone who knows what he's doing and this time I wanna be very2x certain of my feelings of us. I wanna noe him long enuff to sae yes that's the one. I don't want history to repeat itself. That is what i call a smart move. And here I am caring for ppl, explaning myself yaadadya...and guess what they are so proud with their decisions that they don't know what lies ahead of both of em. I taste the salt faster than them coz you know why IT'S MY PEROGATIVE. I am smartttt to use my mind and not my heart. No more. I won't be broken though I am the one that bleeds. My dear syg I hope you understand the situationa and I am glad you support me throughout this process. Thank you for being patient and loving me.
Tanpa memandang kulit, ugama atau bahasa I love you. Yes I do. We're a winner honey. I made it, I made myself happy and my decision is you. *smiles* Bersiaplah, perjuanganku adalah menjadi pemenang... and i owe it to you. Thank you.
love is dead at [7:20 PM]
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